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Friday, May 22, 2009

Letter from 20 May 2009

Hello!

It was kind of a long week. But I got through the first one in the new area with new companions...things should start speeding up from here.

I'm enjoying the threesome. It has a very different dynamic. When we visit people they are kind of surprized that there's three people, but at this point it isn't weird for us. That's kind of true for a lot of things about missionary work, though--it's kind of strange for other people, but not at all for us.

Like praying all the time. In the MTC, there was a Korean tutor we could meet with for thirty minutes at a time. She would always have us start with a prayer, which was strange to me then, but now...why not start with a prayer?

Also when we tell people we live together, or when we explain why we only have one cell phone number (we're always together), they are a little surprized. But that's what missionaries do!

I'm enjoying getting to know my companions, too. So my last compaion, Sister Bang, made sure I started using eye cream. Now Sister Lee (my companions are Sister Gubler and Sister Lee Yae Gi) told me I need to wash my feet every night before I go to bed. "Think about it," she said, "walking around all day with your feet in your stockings." So now I wash my feet at night.

Sister Lee also eats more Korean than Sister Bang did. Sister Lee said she needed rice at every meal...then she said, well, two out of three is okay. We ran out of rice this week. On Sunday had packed a small lunch that we ate in the kitchen at the church building after the meeting--crackers, hard boiled eggs, tomatoes, cookies Sister Gubler made. It was the second meal without rice--Sister Lee refused to eat.

We had a good dinner that night, though. The ward's bishop and his family invited the members over to his house for dinner. There were at least fifty people--but seating is a lot more efficient when you sit on the floor, I've noticed. We had an investigator who came--someone we're meeting with and teaching.

Her name is Choi Hee sook, and she's from North Korea. She is looking for the right church. I was currious about meeting with her. We taught a lesson last week, and she started talking about North Korea. I really wish I could have understood more of what she said. I really wish that. She talked about how people are so poor they don't have rice--they eat barley or corn. And she told us how no one knows about the Bible, about religion.

After meeting with her...before, in my mind, North Korea was just a political ananomly (sp?), some fluke in history and government. I don't know how to describe it...maybe like looking at those old Soviet propaganda posters. You know what's behind them isn't quite right, but they're foreign looking and far enough away from you personally and historically that you don't have to worry about it.

After the appointment though...I just got maybe a sliver more of understanding. There was also a member at the appointment with us. Choi Hee sook has been in South Korea for about nine years now, and the member looked at me and said, "you haven't seen your family for a few months, but can you imagine nine years?" And then I asked if you could send letters to North Korea, or email (because I really can't imagine nine years), and they just laughed. Of course you can't just send a letter to North Korea. And people don't have computers.

That night I thought about it...how even if it was a historical fluke the way I thought, what it comes down to is that it affects normal people every day. They are so close from here, but their lives are completely different. Members take us out to eat and overfeed us...and within a few hours they can't afford rice--or there isn't rice. All of a sudden it felt a lot more real. This is definately a learning experience, as a missionary. In a lot of different ways.

I hope you all have a wonderful week, and I send my love.

--Carrie

Friday, May 15, 2009

Letter from 13 May 2009

Transfer day!

Sister Bang and I got up at 4:45 this morning to head to Shindorin subway station. It's a central point in the mission, so on transfers, everyone moving meets at the same point. So this morning at 7:00 there was a heard of white shirted foreigners. Quite a sight.

I found out on Saturday that I would be moving, and so the last few days I've had some unexpected feelings. It is sad to say goodbye to people. It has been gratifying to realize I love them and appreciate them, and that maybe I mattered a little bit to them, too. And it's been exciting to think about the new experiences, especially new people, waiting for me in this area.

Yesterday was a good last day in Yeongdong. We had a district meeting, them met with Jeong Tae ja. She's middle-aged, we met her on the subway. She invites us over and cooks for us and talks, and we try to get a lesson in. She dilligently attends another church, and so considering that, and how long visits always ended up taking, we weren't sure if we should keep meeting with her.

During our visits, Sister Bang figured out Jeong Tae ja's husband knew a member of the church from Sister Bang's home town. And after awhile we found out...her husband had been baptized and joined our church when he was in college. This friend baptized him.

So it didn't feel like just chance that we were meeting with her, though she didn't seem to be really understanding what we were teaching--more like she would hear things she wanted to hear. But yesterday we met, and we read from the Book of Mormon together. We tried to explain again how it's not just a good book, but that if it's true the church is true (like her, a lot of people accept the Book of Mormon, they just don't see the implications).

She is really involved in her church, and Sister Bang and I weren't sure that her changing religions was really a possibility. But yesterday when we met, she started talking.... I have a really hard time understanding her when she speaks, so I had to check with Sister Bang after. But I heard right--she was saying that if it was right, she would come to our church.

I also got to see a few more church members yesterday who we had gotten to know, and a newer investigator we've been meeting with--Nam-Goong Yoo ran. She is learning nail art and has a dream to do it in America. And in the evening we had an appointment with Nam Gi yeon. She was actually really distressed that I was leaving. She's the investigator we would sing pop songs with during English time. She asked me which one had been my favorite, and we sang it together. I promised I would never forget her. And I really don't think I can.

And then that night I finished packing like mad--stopped folding things even, just throwing them in. So now unpacking is a mess. I think because people rely so heavily on public transportation here, shipping things is really inexpensive. I packed up two good-sized boxes that Sister Bang arranged to get sent (total: about 14,000 won, so about $14) and somehow still filled up my two suitcases. I will have to eliminate things. Especially since a wheel broke on one of the suitcases. It got really heavy at that point.

My new area is Anyang stake. We cover five wards--I'm not excited about that part of it! At least I'm a little more keyed in at this point, so getting to know people and areas will be a bit easier this time around, I think.

I'm in a threesome. Sister Gubbler is from California. She has three transfers left, so has lots of experience! She is Sister Lee Yae gi's trainer. Lee Yae gi is from Daejeon (in the southern part of Korea), and this is her second transfer.

This transfer will definately have a very different dynamic. I'm a "co-senior" companion with Sister Gubbler. In Korea, age is really important. The American "age group" of "peers" and "friends" gets a heirarchy. You are "friend" (for lack of a better translation)--which means you were born in the same year--or an "older sister/brother" or a "younger sister/brother." Sister Bang explained to me that we would never be called "friends" in Korean, since she is older than me. We would be a "friendly older sister" and I would be a "friendly younger sister" (again, for lack of a better translation). And Sister Bang and I were friends in the English sense of the word, but at the same time she really was my older sister ("oni") in the Korean sense. And different than just a junior and senior companion. She would have me sit down on the subway if there was just one seat. She would tell me things I needed to change. Made sure I took medicine if I was sick. Made sure my bag wasn't too heavy. That kind of thing.

And when I was dragging the suitcase with the broken wheel, I realized I didn't have an "oni" anymore! The threesome feels right, though. It will be different, but it will be good. A friend from the MTC wrote me awhile ago. She was in a threesome and said she actually really liked it--there wasn't so much guessing about what the other person was feeling/thinking. Also, I'm seeing that I will be able to take more responsibility now without my "oni." So for several reasons, I think it will be good. An adventure, too.

Much love,

Carrie

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Letter from 6 May 2009

Hello!

The weather is warming up fast here. Spring brought yellow and white forcithia bushes, cherry blossoms and magnolia trees all over, and now as they are leafing out there are bright pink and purple flowered bushes blooming all over the city. It is getting hot faster this year than normal, though, and the monsoon season is reportedly coming early--maybe the beginning of June. And after monsoon season, Sister Bang tells me, is when summer--hot and humid, from what I hear--officially starts.

The warm weather makes me think of all sorts of happy memories--summer has good associations, with school letting out, family vacations, and also thinking about this time last year making arrangements, going to interviews, really getting ready to go on a mission.

Also, I caught a cold this week, and oddly, that has brought up unexpected memories, too. Like the comfort of going to the doctor's office with my mom when I was little. And also, all of a sudden Korea smells like it did when I first came--I had a cold when I came...the two must be connected. Interesting, the things that bring up memories.

And interesting, too, that I have a few memories to look back on in Korea, as a missionary. All of a sudden I'm towards the middle of my mission, not the beginning! I still feel like I'm just figuring things out, though!

People are becoming more important, too. We are still meeting with Nam Gi Yeon. We sing pop songs with sad lyrics together when we do English practice. When we do gospel lessons, she summarizes bit by bit the things she's read in the Book of Mormon, and asks questions about the House of Israel and Moses. Yesterday when we met, she asked for help reading some letters from nearly 30 years ago. When she was a school girl, her and a friend met two foreigners on the subway--one from France, one from Switzerland. They were traveling the world, and the one from Switzerland send her some postcards, a couple of letters. And then they lost touch, but she kept the letters.

And we meet three times a week with Kim Mi Yeong, but just twice this week because Monday was Children's Day--a "red day," so kids had it off from school, adults off from work. It was fun to see families out and about together. It's just a day to make kids happy.

Kim Mi Yeong asks about how to actually use the atonement. She wants to know if God lives, about Jesus Christ. As we meet, I try, I hope she sees that with prayer, with reading in the scriptures, attending church--as she searches out and learns, she will come to know. She will come to feel God's existance, and Christ's love. That's how all of us do it.

I am seeing more and more that knowing things, that the Church, the gospel, is a process, not a somewhere where you arrive, and then you're set. We have a whole lifetime--for a reason, I think. We need time. It's step by step, and each step comes with greater joy, with a greater ability to feel peace. And that's why it matters.

I love you all, and I hope you have a wonderful week.

--Carrie

Monday, May 4, 2009

Letter from 29 April 2009

Hello!

It was another good week. I feel like I learned a lot this week.

Like how being capable is a process. For a long time I had the idea that if I just decided to do things right, I could do them all right--so I guess I thought if I just concentrated a little harder, I could be perfect. Maybe a couple of months ago the sisters in the mission got together on preparation day for lunch, and the two leaving soon were asked to give a few words of wisdom. One of them said that on her mission, she has learned that God doesn't expect immediate perfection, just immediate progression. And that kind of sums up what I've started to realize.

And I am seeing that we're all just works in progress. I am a better missionary that I was when this began--and a better person, I hope. But I haven't "arrived." I don't think we ever do--thank heavens. There are always other lessons, other challenges--so things won't get boring! And we've been given a whole lifetime to keep working at it.

And one other big lesson this week. Before I cam on my mission, I had felt the joy that comes from obedience and following the Lord--that He really does direct us to the paths that will make us happiest. I tell people often, when we talk about prayer and getting answers and direction, about how I chose a university. I didn't particularly want to go to BYU. But I prayed about where I should go, and it felt right. And I when I followed that prompting, I really did find joy. I found good friends, there are good classes for my major, I had opportunities to do research. When we follow the Lord, he leads us to be more happy.

Joy comes from following, but I think it comes from service, too. And sacrifice. I don't feel like I am doing a lot as a missionary. I don't speak much Korean, and I can't tell you which way is north when we're looking for houses for appointments. I misunderstand people's questions and have a hard time remembering the names of ward members at church. But this week...the members we had taught who were just baptized, came to church and one had brought a friend, and we met another at home...nothing in particular, except realizing I loved them, I wanted the best for them, and that there is joy in that, too.

Have a good week,

Carrie

Friday, April 24, 2009

Letter from 22 April 2009

Hello!

It's been a good week. Maybe I'll work backwards.

Yesterday we had a zone conference--a long meeting, filled with good things and lots of things to do better. Life is a work in progress. Goodness. A member took us out to dinner, and we had a lesson with Song Bo mi, the middle school student who just got baptized. We talked about the temples, and she listened so closely, looked at pictures, asked questions. It is amazing meeting with her. On the subway on the way home, we ended up talking with a woman who attended the Church and read the Book of Mormon when she was in college--fifty years ago. It was really extraordinary. The Church had just come to Korea fifty years ago--it was so small. She must have seen a really neat time.

Meeting with her, I wondered what I usually wonder seeing or meeting with older people--what they have seen. Korea has changed so dramatically in the last fifty years since the war. I want to hear their stories, their memories. See what they can see when they think back.

Tuesday we jumped rope for exercise and met with Kwak Kyon Jin, who lives upstairs in a two level house, and has to wave an umbrella in front of the dog chained at the bottom of the stairs to distract him so we can go up.

Monday an investigator fed us bi bim bap and her husband figured out his friend knows my companion, Sister Bang. His friend is a stake president.

Sunday we did a companion exchange, and I went to Kangdong ward for the first time. A woman who showed up at English class on Saturday asked me to correct an essay for her, and said she'd come to church so we could look it over on Sunday. She came and sat in another room during the meeting, working on her essay.

Saturday there were only two people at English class. We met a member--a high school student--and practiced English and did a gospel lesson at the church. There was a ward activity going on later that night, and half the ward primary children came in in a herd, and we talked to all of them about how Joseph Smith restored Christ's gospel.

Friday I didn't write in my journal.

Thrusday--preparation day--Sister Bang and I found an art museum on a map. We went, and it turned out they had a special Gustav Klimpt exhibit. I had wanted to see it--I had seen it advertized--so I was really excited. We also got hearded into some opening event where they were serving a buffet. A nice buffet. Catered. Sister Bang asked a few times--are you sure we can eat?

Yes, yes, they said. Enjoy.

I love you all!

--Carrie

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Letter from 15 April 2009

A few lessons this week.

Last week I had met with a new investigator along with a member--Sister Bang was busy helping get ready for the baptism service. We met, I introduced the 30/30 English program, we introduced ourselves in English, introduced the Book of Mormon, and set a next appointment.

Especially with the English program, I've felt like in the first meeting, we need to do what we say we're offering. We say we'll do English then teach about our church. I've felt like, when we first meet people, if we don't do English and teach about our church (what's promised), they will feel like we're wasting their time.

This investigator, though, dropped by the next week. Sister Bang was making phonecalls the day of the drop, and when she hung up, she looked at me and said, "you didn't do anything to build the relationship, did you?"

We had talked about it before--we had had a dinner appointment, and practiced a lesson for it, then practiced asking the people if they knew anyone else we could teach. At the appointment, though, there were lots of people, we weren't sure when we would leave because someone was giving us a ride...and the gospel message ended up just a card with a scripture on it Sister Bang slipped to the hostess and a "thank you."

After the two experiences--especially the "you didn't..." experience, I'm thinking my idea of meeting expectations and showing people they can trust us is maybe culturally different. I'll keep working on figuring it out. But I wish I had a Korean mind--things would be more effective, I think.

Another lesson from Sister Bang this week: eye cream. It started the day I looked in the mirror and said, "well, that one's new," looking at some of the lines around my eyes. Sister Bang found out I didn't use eye cream. She let me borrow hers (and followed up nightly to see that I used it) until the two of us could go to the store and I could get my own. Eye cream is expensive. I wondered what on earth I was doing, but then told myself the price was in won, it must not really be that much...

Have a wonderful week!

--Carrie

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Letter from 8 April 2009

Hello!!

We had a baptism this week! Shin Dong oon, her neice and nephew Hyun jeong and Su hyun, and the family friend, Song Bo mi all got baptized and confirmed last weekend.

Two of the baptisimal interviews were done earlier, and then the two girls, Hyun jeong and Bo mi, got interviewed just the night before (Korean students are super, super busy--always at school or hak won--a private academy--studying). The girls went in one at a time, and as we waited, we did a short lesson with the one not being interviewed.

And then we just talked. Hyun jeong told me about the founding story of Korea. A bear and a tiger wanted to become human, so they talked to the son of heaven (I think), who told them to go to a cave and eat only garlic and mugroot for one hundred days. They tiger gave up on the ninety-ninth day. But the bear became a woman, and married the son of heaven. And that's how Korea was begun.

Later in the week, we were leaving one of the huge apartment buildings after meeting with a woman for English practice then a gospel lesson. A church member, Pak Yeong mi, had come with us, and as we were leaving, she pointed to some of the plants that are beginning to sprout with spring. She bent down and picked a green leaf and handed it to me, explaining that you could eat it. It was mugroot--쑥.

The baptism was on Saturday. The four are the first ones I have seen from the first lesson to baptism. That night Sister Bang and I did a companion exchange so she could help them get ready and a member--Kim Jeong sook--and I met with a new investigator. When Kim Jeong sook and I finished, we went into the hall and I saw Su hyeon dressed in white...it was a really impressive feeling.

I had a lot of feelings that night--I didn't quite expect to. I was happy and excited for them. And relieved. And really worried. Worried about them understanding what we taught, what they were promising with baptism.

They were confirmed the following Sunday in church. Shin Dong oon lead the line of four up to the front of the chapel, and sat down first to be confirmed. She looked really resolute as she walked up. She is in her thirties, really small, and each time we meet with her I think she is more beautiful. I was just impressed with her. And her courage.

I hope you all have a wonderful week!

Love,

Carrie